(Lots of) Love and (Lacking) Commitment

For Lent, I gave up Facebook. And it was a success. I did not get on Facebook one single time for the duration of Lent (over 40 days). Now, if I could only apply the same commitment and strength of will to other tasks.

I can’t get up in the morning to do anything other than get ready for work. I even have a hard time doing that. I feel like that would be the best time to work out, but no matter how many days in a row I set my alarm for 5:30am (which allows me to hit snooze once or twice), I never get up and do anything. I don’t smoke or do drugs, and I rarely drink. But aside from these virtues, I know that I live an unhealthy life. Little to no exercise, poor quality of food, and too-large portions all add up to one not-so-healthy 24-year old girl. I need to get to a point where I feel healthy on the inside, and appreciate the way that healthy feeling makes me look on the outside.

I’m always daydreaming about how great I would look and feel if I were healthier. I imagine myself running without huffing and puffing, chasing Brooke and Bosco around the dog part without looking like a fool, wearing clothes that fit both my body and my personality. I am happy in my relationship, but every now and then it’s nice for someone you don’t know to tell you how nice you look. I don’t really get that anymore. Trust me… I don’t like being hassled by random people about anything (which is why work can be so trying at times), but sometimes it’s nice to hear that you look nice from someone other than your boyfriend or parents.

This is something I’ve been struggling with for many years now (and written and deleted many blog posts about). I just haven’t found the answer yet.

Anywho… I’ve been looking at fashion sites a lot lately, trying to determine what “my style” is. I don’t really have a name for it, but I love things that are classic, vintage (1920s – 1960s are years of prime interest), casual, and maybe a little indie-/hipster-ish (nothing too hipster, I’m not cool enough). I was looking at Isaac Mizrahi’s book How to Have Style the other day, and in it Mr. Mizrahi has each woman he assists put together a board of things that inspire them; these inspirational images and items then became the inspiration for their respective styles. I’m going to make my own inspiration board… right here!

Oliver Peoples Candice sunglasses because they’re simple and beautiful

Reese Witherspoon for her sense of self

Audrey Tautou for her quirkiness and innate French style

Edun by Ali Hewson and Bono for their dedication to the environment and those who are less fortunate

Coco Chanel for her ideas of simple style and beauty

Natalie Portman for her talent, brains, beauty, and concern for people around the world

Tina Fey for her sense of humor and unabashed geekiness

Salvador Dali for expressing himself in a new, visually astounding way

Jhumpa Lahiri for writing amazing stories that make me feel so connected to a place I have only dreamed about

Lance Armstrong for fighting the battle and never giving up

Converse Chuck Taylors for being comfy, casual, and cute with almost everything

I think I’m done for now. That ended up with more people than I initially planned, but, oh well. Maybe I’ll come up with more things later.