Grown Up Things

I’m sitting at work right now, and I’m meal planning. Cody and I tend to eat out A LOT, and it’s bad for our budgets and waistlines. So, I’m going grocery shopping after work with meals in mind and only buying enough fresh food to make those meals. I’m so terrible about buying fresh, perishable food and watching it rot in my kitchen. I’m such a food and money waster… it’s awful!

A big reason I’m really trying to eat out less is to save money. I’m not a big shopper, and I don’t feel like I do a lot of frivolous buying. But I do spend a bigger portion of my income on food than I should. Because we eat out so much, I end up wasting even more money when our groceries spoil. We need to really save money because we’re seriously looking into buying a house. I’m going to (try to) get pre-qualified for a home loan tonight, and we looked at a house last night. I’d really like to get into a more permanent housing situation where we have control over the space. While our landlord is really great, I don’t like being at the mercy of his or his handymen’s schedules. We are currently wasting A/C energy because for the second time in a week a window is broken in our back door. It would just be nice to be able to deal with issues like this at our pace instead of relying on someone else.

I’ve been asked to be in Cody’s younger brother’s wedding next summer. I will be one of 10 bridesmaids. This wedding is going to be enormous! On Saturday, Jacy’s (the bride) mom is fixing us all breakfast and we’re going to look at and try on bridesmaids’ dresses. While I’m excited for breakfast, I am dreading having to try on a bridesmaid dress. I, still, have not gotten my butt in gear and started working out regularly. While I constantly wish to be in better shape, I set the goal for myself a while back to lose the weight by the time my friend Bonnie gets home from the Peace Corps. She lands in KC in mid-September. If I can pull this off, I’ll also be in shape by the time we have to actually order the dresses for the wedding (December). I need to be a frickin’ grown up and just suck it up and do it!

Jillian Michaels, it would be great if you came to my house every morning for the next month and got me moving. I’d appreciate it!

I need to…

• toss out all the junk cluttering up my house
• get the stuff that’s left organized in some way
• create a workout schedule and stick to it
• cook at home and ditch the junk food… mostly
• clean and do laundry more regularly

I often feel that I accomplish very little on a day-to-day basis. And while, when thinking about things, the big pieces seem like the most important ones, it’s really all the little things we do that add up to who we are and determine how our behaviour is characterized. I feel like people look at me and see me as someone who is lazy, doesn’t care about her body or health, not fun, and doesn’t mind living in piles of dirt or dog hair. I don’t think I’m that person at heart; at least, I don’t want to be. I want to be someone who lives a healthy lifestyle, can take pride in her home, and knows how to have fun but isn’t crazy.

Maybe after I eat my scrambled eggs tonight, I’ll work on the hall closet. I spend so much money on personal care products, and most of them are sitting half-used in that closet. It’s time to get rid of them and make space for more useful items. But we’ll see if it happens tonight… after scrambled eggs, I might just crash!